Instead of Morning Pages October 11-12

I don’t know why I did this exactly, but I had woken up as usual, grabbed my coffee, started reading on my ipad…and when I came to Anne Lamott’s newsletter in my inbox (because Anne just started a Substack newsletter and of course I subscribed), I was inspired to pull out my sketchbook and sketch out her essay in comic form. Here’s what happened in a snapshot (larger images at bottom of post):

It didn’t look like this on the first go round. I just quickly penciled it out in the messiest way for each panel —I wish I’d taken pictures at that point—and I was done for the day.

Again, I really don’t know why I created this illustrated essay. Lamott’s writing is SO engaging and especially visual. I just “saw” the images in my mind in her text and I wanted to draw them out.

And also, as a writer (and a former English teacher) I appreciate her take on writing that “shitty first draft” (her own moniker that I think she defined in Bird by Bird). It’s nice to be reminded that writing IS hard for everyone, especially at the beginning. I find myself in that lost place all the time when I write. It may or may not be why I’m not writing newsletter posts over on Substack much at the moment…

But that idea to make a comic? It just came to me and I went with it and I’m glad I did. It’s true what Anne says about ideas being like goldfish, and not just for writing—for any creative idea. Too often I let that bright goldfish just swim away and I lose it.

This time, though, I acted on the idea of making a comic and I made it. I went back the next day and inked it out, and copied her essay and pasted the excerpts of her story to finish it, even if still pretty rough draft-ish (but it’s a sketchbook so that’s ok!)

Comics intimidate the heck out of me. I don’t often make them, although I have come to love and appreciate comics as an art form and I follow several artists who make comics…Lynda Barry, Mike Lowery, Edith Zimmerman, for example. Occasionally I have created visual diary pages in comic form (that I have to say I like very much). But still. Comic making REALLY intimidate me! I don’t have a lot of confidence in my ability to draw from imagination.

This little exercise, though (and it is just an exercise in my sketchbook. Without Anne’s permission I would NEVER share this for commercial purposes), this little exercise was super enlightening for me. First, I was so very judgmental about the drawing, especially the humans, as I drew and inked it all up. I wanted to give up a million times—my inner critic was screaming!

But you know what? I kind of like it now. Someone said that a big part of being an artist who draws is to accept what comes out of your hand. I think I’m in a part of my drawing journey where I’m just beginning to let my “bad” drawing come out as it wants…

The other thing I learned is that this feels like something I should do more of—tell stories and illustrate them in some way. Hmmm.

Okay, here are pages in readable form (click on each if you want it even bigger):